Negated

Squished
Smashed

Impeded
Stopped
Paralyzed

Entangled
Suspended
Ended

Discontinued
Cancelled
Nullified
Eliminated

Just Joking

I have a hard time laughing at myself. I pride myself in having a sense of humour and yet I can't just laugh off mistakes, or naivite, or confusion. When my children or husband imitate or mock me, I can't join in the joke. I don't like looking foolish.

I have this underlying inferiority complex. I grew up thinking that I never knew what everyone else already knew. I worked hard at school and got good marks but still felt that I wasn't very intelligent. To this day, I'm intimidated by people who have degrees or seem to have an abundance of knowledge and/or education.

When I speak out about something, usually I speak from feelings rather than thoughts. I'm passionate but vague. I don't remember details and when I present, I'm not very logical. I'm very conscious about knowing how I feel but not really knowing what I think. I'm not a quick wit and I can't think on my feet.

I would like to lighten up about me and not take me so seriously. I want to be more layed back about the mistakes I make and the learning process. I think that would make life much more fun.

Secrets

If knowledge is power and ignorance is bliss, which one would you pick?

Inside Out

I'm attending an art class every Friday. Most of the time while painting I don't feel very creative inside because the painting process is quite structured. It seems like one step up from a paint by numbers course. The results are acceptable. My paintings could be hung on a wall and possibly appreciated. In fact, I have one in my office at work.

I joined a theatre group this year. It's a new experience for me. My main role is production manager but I also have a small part. Last rehearsal I had to stand in for someone who was absent. The character I played is the second wife to a "rotter" of a man, whom some say is attractive. The scene was in the bedroom and was quite playful in the intimate sense of the word. On the inside, I was really into the part, enjoying the flirting and having a wonderful time. I've been told that on the outside I looked like a skittish virgin. No nomination for an Oscar this year. I hold on to the comment from our director, "You have stage presence, you just need a little coaching and lots of practice, that's all."